well i guess they cant realy judge u unless they actualy know u, but if i had a gf and she cheated on me cus she was drunk i would just forgive and forget if it meant nothing.
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i dunno why. memory a blur. i had to tell him, too much respect for him to lie?

he doent even wanna love with another girl... just oral really. he'll feel even.


and since the incident, he told me that he has feeling more attracted...

i keep thinking why cant he just move on. but i guess he loves me so much it hurts think of me with someone else

u could try telling him like "i was the one that hurt u leme make this upto u" then like force him on holiday?
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Sounds like you need to find someone who treats you with a lot more respect than that. If he loved you then he wouldn’t have told you he didn’t find you attractive anymore. Dump him and get yourself a new man.

Getting drunk and blowing strangers in bathrooms isn’t going to help you self esteem much either so you may want to cut back on the vodka intake love.

Just out of curiosity, ..why does your profile say you are a lesbian?

and im jst wondering why u on this site if u got a bf?
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if he doesnt find you attractive does that not say it all???? !!!!!!!!!!!111
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sorry just wanting to see how this one works and have some fun, best of fun to you all.

my opinion is you kissed the other guy, and you gave another guy a bj then told your partner cos you want him to see that other men find you attractive and they do desire you, and maybe that would spark some interest in your boyfriend? the thing is if you have a 3 some its not gonna make your realtionship better long term because he has already told you, he doesnt find you attractive anymore, you can take a break, thats not gonna solve it, the problem doesnt magically go away when you take a break. it may prolong the length of the relationship a little longer, but it certainly doesnt save it, not in my experience anyway. what you need to do is get out of this way of thinking that 'you cant be happy without him' thats being codependent and its not good for your own self esteem, which you mentioned you have issues with.
personally if a partner told me she didnt find me attractive anymore id say that pretty much signified the end of the relationship, it would be like making love to a lump of cold beef in bed after that. the way id view it, is if i really loved that person i would be really hurt and upset, but inside of myself id know that i was happy before i met that person and id be able to find happiness after i left that person. it just takes time. in answer to your initial question, based upon what you have written, i dont think you are a horrible person, you are having trouble coming to terms with some very strong emotions. i hope you find out the right way for you, and stay off the pills.

firstly a man should never tell a woman she isnt attractive its just stupid and secondly him saying that means he deservs everything he gets lose him girly because its obvious that if he can say something so hurtfull he doesnt deserve to have you
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He probably worded it (unintentionally) in a manor that painted him innocently.

To be honest there are many things that can lead to something. It sounds like there were troubles brewing and maybe that was your way of handling them.

I reckon for me the whole tit for tat and him doing the same would just complicated things even more - though can't say whether it would work for someone else.

Maybe a proper relationship counsellor who can get both sides and work from that would do you both more good than asking people who will do their best but can only go from the bit of information that comes through a post..

this is a quote form my late wife marolyne
"No one ever told me I was pretty when I was a little girl. All little girls should be told they are pretty, even if they aren't."
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Ok.
He was in the wrong to tell you aren't attractive to him.


But it also seems like you can't be very serious about him if you went off and gave a BJ to another guy.

That's just as bad.
Either way, it won't last long because of both of those things.

Sorry.