this is an account of my bevvy session that went tits up last night.

It started in my local wi a couple of lads fi my footie team in the afternoon.laughs and jokes were shared and there was a good feeling about the night ahead.a few hours later we went up town to meet more friends and very quickly things turned sour.two of my best friends (both female) had been asking me for past two or three months if id like to join them for a weeks holiday this summer with their boyfriends who are now good friends of mine as well. ive been spurning their offers telling them that i dont feel comfy going on hols wi just two couples.they view this as a poor excuse and feel a liitle offended but they have accepted this answer on previous occassions before last night.due to my drink binge i remember very little so ill need to go on what ive been told since. the conversation went along the lines of.

friends - you coming on holiday with us?
me - na i dont want to go wi just couples
friedns - we aint just couples -we r supposed to be your friends

at that point i went to the bar to avoid saying anything else but i knew i had just killed the atmos in the boozer.

very few words were exchanged after that and i left the club wi my mate after realising what an insensitive prat id been.normally im the friendliest drunk in the world but last night i seemed to press the self destruct button arguing with mates ive known for years and never had cross words wi before.

to add to my woes i proceeded to breakdown in taxi to my m8 telling him that im losing all my mates (i know how much of a drama queen am i? lol)

woke up today in afternoon remembering nothing but having this niggly feeling that id pissed sum1 off.i was then shouted on by my mum to have a look at hallway wall.it turns out when i oppened front door last night i slammed it off wall causing a dent (just as well my old man is a plasterer)

ive now spent majority of shift at work putting the world to right and apologising to every1 over the phone but still feel shitty bout it.(maybe thats a hangover)

think ill gi the drink a miss for a bit now.

That sounds like a regular night with my friends

the thing is it was an argument that could have been easily avoided.i say argument it was more like i didnt word a couple of things the way i wanted to and hurt a couple of mates feelings.

I think they may have been over-sensitive about it.

nah fi what they were saying to me tonight it sounded like i had been very cruel wi my delivery. i think it was the shock of seeing the shitty side to me that got to them most.i feel better after apologising on phone tonight but im so ashamed at being such a dick.

Well at least you apologised.

I don't get that from any of my friends.

Last year being an example - I haven't spoken to said friend since..but..

We were out with some other people, and...well..I had a bit too much to drink..was quite out of it. What she failed to mention is somebody had spiked my drink.

i think thats a friend ur better off wi out. i feel better as night wore on but im so annoyed cos id meant to say sumthin but cos was out of it i worded it wrong and pissed a few folk off.

another instance was i got a mate who fancies one of the girls who goes out town wi us.she is wi sum1 who is also a mate.my friend had been txting her last night so i was wrried he would say sumthing.later on in club i say them both talking and went over to drag him away fi her.she asked what was wrong and i said he needed protecting fi her.she took it as a dig but i mean that he needed to be kept away cos he couldnt be trusted.i wasnt saying she was going to start sumthing but thats how it started and it wasnt best thing to happen after the holiday argument earlier.

Yeah...

You could have phoned or sent a text if you wanted to get it off your chest earlier, you know

thanx but i only phoned my mates at nine and dint get off phone till ten.one of them had me on phone talking bout if i was ok and bout things that had happened years ago.

ok...

So..feeling better?

yeah not to bad now thanx. im glad i phoned them and sorted it.im just so annoyed wi myself for letting it happen.i guess u should only drink if it is gonna sway ur mood in the right direction.

Makes sense.

Glad you're feeling a bit better

thanx and i know others have it rough.im just an over sensitive drama queen at times. cant believed i cried in the taxi.

I always cry when drunk...


And hug people.....and tell my friends that I love them!

i normally do those things but never cry well not for a few years anyway.thats the problem when u aint cried in a while its hard to stop when u do.