look for me washed up in this dirty world never new a thing since a little kid/
feeling like my familys cursed because were all departing it makes me/
loose my breath holding my chest fall to my knees in Grief and disbelief/
that this torcher and pain streaming through my mind will it ever change/
am going round the bend will it ever end this phisical feeling of anxiety Deep Within/
i pray and hope light up a smoke wondering if its part to blame because thats my mind state/
suicidal thoughs getting bigger running through my mind frame then suddenly... i feel happy again/
its like a dirty game with no gain...



(Chorus) So i try so hard hopeing one day someone will rescue me
Yea i try so hard hopeing one day you'll come rescue me


I try so hard to get away from this misery but it keeps on following me/
like a dark cloud i feel trapped locked down so insecure i hardly make a sound/
other than the raceing of my heart so deluded and paranoid about my apperance/
i need a helping hand a kind heart to warm my soul who understands and listens to everything iv told/
maybe then ill be free from this mental state and the chains will break and my lifestory will unfold/
untill then im standing in the cold ready to go.....





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I believe that everything that you do bad comes back to you. So everything that I do that\'s bad, I\'m going to suffer from it. But in my mind, I believe what I\'m doing is right. So I feel like I\'m going to heaven.