Sorry, bit serious this one,

At this point in my life I wouldn't go back in time, no matter what, my good or bad experiences have sort of shaped me now, and I pretty much like me as I am with those experiences and regrets...
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When I die, I want to go peacefully like my Grandfather did, in his sleep -- not screaming, like the passengers in his car.

Thats what I meant Baggie, erase the past, come back to the present. then when a shite situation comes up you don't have past experience/recognition to deal with it better?

there is good and bad in all situations..
to miss out the situations and therefore miss out the bad, we also miss the good we can take from it.

true story, notmaking it up or embelishing it in anyway....
about 8-9 years ago, one saturday , i , at that time used to put £10 a week on the lottery.. 10 lines all on the sat draw, they didnt have the wed draw back then...
this particular week... i happened to choose the right numbers..
my "g/f at the time, and also the mother of my 2 oldest children" decided it was a good gamble to not put my lines on, but instead grab a bottle of wine and a pack of fags, and head up to her mates house.
it turned out that that week noone had the right numbers making it a roll over to the next week... so if my numbers where on, then the 8.5 mill would have been mine ... i mean .. ours...
which would have been pretty cool ...right...?
but that would have changed my life from the path it took
i would have not met the mother of my youngest daughter, and i would not have had my youngest daughter, and i probobly would have still been with that stupid selfish cow that made me miss my millions!!!!...
but.. i dont hate her for it.
cause i love my daughter, and her wine and fags had a hand in that


( before anyone says anything about my comments about her being a selish ugly fat smelly cow..... im joking, she wasnt smelly, just the other stuff....lol)

If it meant i could still have the same things that i have today eg my daughter. I would have ran a mile away from that that stupid tall, dark, handsome, man i met (AKA the husband soon to be ex). God damn he was supposed to be my one and only one night stand but i just couldn't get rid of him. Ha!! Now i have though!!

Yes, and this part is funny because i have also said that i never would on here but this is different since i have been given the choice to fix it and i would with not spending so much time on the bike and work less.

Hell no, ...why go through all that pain and suffering again !

I guess i wouldnt change much either cause its made me who i am.

i guess one of them i wouldnt have gone into but then again its made me who i am but ofcourse even me wouldnt be so daft going into a long relationship including him abusing alchol, pills, drugs gambling and then some......(he even tried killing himself)
and he got abusive to me in the end but then i finally found the guts to leave him.....

I know there are things i would have done a bit dif in my last relationship who ended just weeks ago..... but that was because i wanted it to last and because i still have feelings for him so i do anything to keep him .


to early maybe for me to answer