ok, if i ever do i will :~

I've gone eighteen years of my life alone. I never had a girlfriend, I never cared to have one. I spent all my time playing video games, talking with my friends, and completing my education.

Until six months ago, I met someone. It was a girl. There was nothing special about us to begin with, we were really just good friends. One day, during a conversation in the middle of the night(or the next days morning, whatever you prefer)... We found out the one thing we wanted in our lives, the type of boyfriend/girlfriend we would want, is just a really good friend who you could love.

We grew closer and closer, as really good friends. We laughed, joked, watched movies. All our interests were completely in tune with the others; we could talk about anything, do anything, and just involve each other in every activity. Even the most "boyish" of activities, playing video games, she would be sitting beside me watching me, talking with me, or even stealing the controller to play herself. We were just able to spend massive amounts of times together.

Our romance was subtle, but powerful. From the act of simply making dinner to her, to her teasing me every morning because we would wake up and I would have stopped cuddling her in the middle of the night... The love was there. We would try and do things, to ensure the romance was there, but it was never really required as we always somehow ended up getting lost in each others eyes.

But I lost myself... For three weeks I stopped being the person I was... I stopped being the talkative, cuddly person I always was. We ended up fighting, things exploded, and now she's gone. She is not going to come back. I was not abusive, I was was mad, and I never yelled during those three weeks... But because me and her were so in tune with each other, exactly the same, when I lost myself, I lost her with it.

Now I have a question... How does one, after losing someone who is his exact copy almost, someone who could always be there, who could talk for hours on end and still never run out of things to say, who could end up, in the middle of a conversation, getting lost in each others eyes and the only words able to muster up is "I love you." The one person I've felt comfortable sleeping next to, holding in my arms, embracing her lips...

The question is... How can one stop feeling lonely after losing that?

how do you stop your heart from breakeing out of lonlyness?

Hmmm..This is a nice question..Will for me I stop my heart from breaking loneliness,I keep myself busy,bonding with my other and all filipina friend here.Thinking that I am not alone and I do this for my family and to my future,because being far to my parents and leave my country which is philippines is not easy because thats my country and I am here in am here in abroad for them and to my future.

Awwwwwwwww, hunny. Hugzie.