I am so sorry you are having a bad time of it..... god! looks like thats two of us then!!!

It would help if my friends were talking to me...But then again, I don't think i'd risk telling anybody anything now.

but u shouldent bottle it up, i used to then it just comes out in one big burst of anger and normaly towards the wrong people. so talk but talk to the people u can 100% trust.

I should find somebody to talk to.

There's only one person in the world that I trust 100%, but I don't know how he'd deal with me talking about stuff.

After spending more than twelve months totally alone... with no one to talk to and not being able to trust anyone its been a hard and a long recovery process. I have been in total dispair at times..... but it does get better and i can only say that now.... as i am coming out the other side....I understand again the frustrations of people who you thought were your friends and who you thought knew you so well turn against you. These people i am talking about were my life long friends.... whom i have known for over 30+ YEARS!!! actually believe someone else who appears to have been able to manipulate them. These friends knew me! Knew what i was capable of and new what i was not capable of! in the end it all came good.... but boy! did i fight my corner!

Most 18 year old girls can be evil bitches. Hence me having more male friends.

You are not wrong there!!!!

lol, I know.

I'm 18, I can be bitchy(ok, very bitchy!) but I am actually quite a nice person.

You are a lovely person..... and you have so got to beleive in that! I know its hard.... but! you are and its NOT you with the problem.

Oh, I have a problem. It's her..and other things.

yes this i understand................... but! you need to ride the storm......it WILL get better even though you can not see that right now! Yes she is a problem...... and yes she is causing you alot of pain..... but the TRUTH has a funny way of showing itself.... when you least expect it

She told one of my (male) friends girlfriend that I was 'seeing' him. Stupid woman. And the girlfriend gave me a lot of grief over it.

That's not even the worse thing she told.

I doubt any of this will turn out to be funny.

christ........ and she is supposed to be your friend???? oh god!!! she is so not worthy of your friendship

Exactly.

well i am so sorry really i am...god you so do not know how i relate to you..... but sadly my story is not for viewing..as its bad........ but god..... i feel for you and understand