well i think i owe it to you guuys i havent been myself lately i am having a very hard time of things which are so personal i cannot tell you guys i dont think i been very pleasant to know all round because of this. Sorry. Sc=uba hit the nail on the head about guys hitting me but its not that there is anyone new who is violent to me its living with the repercussions of D.V fullstop. Hopefully time will heal all hurts til then i will b more mindful

I really hope things get better for you Loubylou.
If you ever need to talk... feel free to pm me.

thanks kizz will bear that in mind hun

Your posts seemed like a cry for help..

So I hope your life becomes more bearable Lou..Hopefully all these hard times will make you a better and stronger person..Good luck

good luck dealing with whatever's eating you. It's hasn't gone unnoticed, it's just not an easy thing to mention when i don't know you, and harder still when i've only managed to irritate you with the few light hearted posts i've aimed in your direction.

No apology needed as far as I'm concerned Louby. Better off letting frustrations out then keeping them in, and I wouldn't say you cause to much of an problem on the boards with the few posts you make. There are plenty of people on the board with the compassion and patience to hear what you have to say and try and help you. xx

there really isnt much anyone can do for my situation practically bbut its up to me to not come on the boards when i am having a bd day

thanks jeggea appreciate your post i really do

i wish life was simpler, but it isn't and it never will be, i wish life had a road map but still there is none. i don't think there is anyone that can really help or even seen other ppls point of view, they can some wat relate to the kinda similar experience but every person on this earth live and might possibly will live a unqiue life. we all have down times, it is just that some of us learn how to hide it or bure it so deepinside ourself that they cann't even find it themselfs. some say u must have the strength. but strenght is actually nothing more than a illusion of being strong or in other words getting knocked back and still coming for more and keep moving with time and life, accepting it as a part of life.

there is no one that can hurt you if you don't want them too. when you say enough is enough then life starts turning new pages. when you fight back and not lay on the ground just to be kicked then you found the strength. fight to be happy as no one will fight this for you. fight to atleast have a chance.
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Aww Loubylou, big hugs for you!!

You can't change the past, but thinking about it gives it life so try to put your energies into thinking what you wish your future to be like. I know this is difficult as I also had DV as part of my past, but it affects us all so differently.

The past has to be acknowledged, but don't stay with those thoughts if they're not helpful. You just need to understand your 'life pattern' so as not to have a repeat.

You will always have moments when something in the 'here and now' triggers those awful feelings, and memories, but don't let them bring you down.

Louby, hope things get better for you I really do x