It's my eldest lads 8th birthday tomorrow and I am missing both my boys more than I have done since I made the decission that they would be better off with their dad. I'll ring him in the morning and hope I can be really cheerful for him, but i miss their little arms around me so much

why not take a trip up to see him if you can...?
i'm sure their dad would not mind you seeing your son on his birthday.

aww sorry to hear that.... it is a bit far isn't it. well stay on the phone for ages n ages then instead lol

yeah my eldest was six last june and i can't believe it.... where have the years gone? seems like only yesterday i was waddling down the street getting stitches in my stomach from walking lmao. i remember her as a newborn. she had a ring around her head cos the nurses demanded i stop pushing. said i wasn't fully dialated yet and there was no way she was ready to be born.... so instead of pushing i squeezed rofl.

turned out i knew better than the nurses... she had this dinted ring around her head at the temples from me squeezing when she was ready to come out.

oh memories. haha

Hope you don't mind me sending you a hug.
Can't imagine how you feel, as I haven't got kids myself, but hope you can keep a big smile on your face for the phone call.

Could you suggest that you met half way for his birthday, have a day out, if you have a good relationship with his Dad? Just a thought.

i can only imagine how you feel tracey.... i'd feel as if i lost a limb if i didn't have my kids no matter how annoying they can be sometimes...... big hugs.

Thanks for the hugs both of you Too late to arrange anything Spare as they're throwing him a b'day party for tomorrow and I don't want to interrupt anything. i think the ex might be accomodating, but James being the average kid will see it as a change of plans, therefore a nuisance Plus, cos he's diabetic, a lot of planning has to go into the food he'll be able to eat tomorrow so can't change any of those at the last minute.

He'll be fine and that's all that matters.

You sounda bit more positive in your last post Red. Sort of resigned to your sone being the important one on his birthday. That's really unselfish of you. Got my fingers crossed that ou hold it together for the phone call.
Big smiles.

Hi Red,

Just wanted to say - hope the phone call went well and you managed to get through it without getting too upset.

Hope you have a good day despite missing your little boy.