What should I do?
me and my ex have been together for a while now. we have been together for about 1 year but before that both of us have been secretly liking each other. i have known her for about 5 years now. recently well not recently this situation happened a while back but a guy from her high school years came back into her life and confessed his love to her all of a sudden. she havent talked to him much in high school although they were still friends but recently he has been around her alot lately. I met her through and online game and we spent countless hours talking to each other every single day. we live very far away and we have been in a long distance relationship ever since the beggining. i would say about 5 hours away. the first time i met her in person was when she came to my city on a vacation with her family so i took the effort to go see her. this was before when we agreed to be together. we have seen each other a few times more after that although we cant see each other that frequently i would say maybe around 4 times more but each time was the whole weekend. I was her first boyfriend and she was mine but i told her she wasnt my first girlfriend the whole time and recently i told her i was and that was when she broke up with me. but at that time that guy had already confessed to her and she was telling me how she was unsure about who she wants to be with. anyways when she told me that she was confused of who she wants to be with, that was when i told her she was my first girlfriend and told her the truth and that made her thought everything we've been through was a lie even though i told her i have not lied about anything else which is the truth. but i dont think that was the reason she broke up with me because as been in a long distance relationship i did all the typical things such as being too needy and not wanting her to hang out with her guy friends or i make her feel guilty that she would rather hang out with them instead of talking to me on the computer. I also kind of made her drive all the way here to see me even though she was new at driving and her sister and roommates told her it was really dangerous but she still did. I guess my reason was its because we've waited for so long to being able to be together but we cant do anything befor but now we can. But yah she drove a few times and than she thought how ridiculous it was and it was too dangerous so she stopped. For christmas break i wanted her to come back with me to my home town but she couldnt because of her parents and how they are not suppose to know that she is dating. That was when that guy confessed to her. She started to hang out with her friends more and started to ignore me. i did the text message terrorism asking where she is all the time and who she is with. And a few days after she told me she was confused of who she wanted to be with and as time went by, she started to hang out with him more and more and talked to him more and hanged out with her friends now. i begged her to come back and promised i would change but its not working as said in your book which i just read.

Anyways last time i talked to her she told me she was confused who she wanted to be with and she told me she would be the one that would make her happiest. Since he lives closer to her and they get to be with each other more i think she would end up choosing him. She told me that she would wait for me to be able to be with her before she makes her decision because right now it wouldnt be fair. Basically i think she is torn between both guys but she has never been his girlfriend before and not now yet at least i think. I havent talked to her for 3 days now and it is so hard because i try to implement no contact but i told her that i needed some space to think. The truth is i love her so much and i am willing to do anything for her. so right now im not exactly sure what to do? should i keep implementing no contact like what im doing now? i havent sent her the second chance letter yet should i do that? what should i do after all of this? im afraid if i implement no contact i would lose her for good because that guy would just be there for her when im actually out of her life. I was her first boyfriend and we lost our virginity to each other i dont know if that means anything but she told me she didnt regret it because she knows she's going to be with me forever but this was all before this situation happened. She told me i would have to find myself right now and she's not sure whether or not me and her would be together and i could tell she really likes the other guy as well. She said she doesn’t think our personality matches and recently she’s been really close to the other guy. Should I fight for her or just learn to let it go. She means everything to me and I don’t wanna let her go tho. I wanna end up with her. What should I do guys? T_T

This is gonna sound blunt and probably negative but just end it. Cut your losses, rebuild your life and move on. She doesn't know what she wants and I doubt she really loves you as much as you love her. There is likely somebody better out there for you.

yah that was what i was thinking. i need someone who can love me unconditionally and be loyal to me not her but she's still in my mind and i still want her to be that person you know? its hard dewd but yah thanks tho