My sister was talking to me about a friend of hers the other day. She said " I would never have known how much Blank's weight hinders her if we hadn't went to a concert together friday " then she told me about all the problems her friend had at the concert My sister said Blank has such a wonderful way about her that you don't even see that she is that fat once you get to know her the weight factor just doesn't matter. I recently met her friend and she weighs at least 300 pounds easy. When you are ready you will lose the weight , until then stop thinking that people see just your fat they may be seeing your insecurity and most people do not find that attractive. Stop acting fat and take care better of yourself, your worth it.